December 17, 2010.."

I HATE LOVE.!!.. Ask anyone who had her broken heart that to love is causing so much pain… Too much love can be lethal… call me crazy, but I tell you.., I’d rather cry because I’m alone than because the person I love most that can’t love me back….
I hate guys that tells me that they love me…yet they never really know who really I am., and they were never really there to make me feel it…those who promise me to stay here with me…co’z they are the ones who actually find it easy to let go…
After loving a man who makes me cry and broke my heart…I still need to be strong… ganyan talaga ang buhay….pamali mali ng desisyon.. “Life is full of trials and errors.” …and I don’t want to make error again…. I’m afraid to hurt again.. single na lang kaya ako forever.! ^_^ co’z you know what’s good being single? No one makes you cry… I’m right di ba.? And being single is a lot wiser than being in wrong relationship…no attachment… no commitment… en no pain…. Tsaka 19 years naman ako hindi nagka-boyfriend e., 1 month lang naman kame…at mas masaya pa rin maging malaya sa ngayon… “there’s a right man for me…siguro., hindi lang talaga si JM un…”
Sabi nga ni Arcel.. “we can’t always keep someone to ourselves forever… sometimes you have to let go… yet, we have to remain standing.!” Kaya dapat… . fight! Fight! Fight! Whatever happens stay happy and enjoy what life brings…

: to all girls who had her broken heart….
Be careful ha.? Just sooner or later…. There will be someone you can call mine… TRUE LOVE CAN WAIT.. …and remember.” Hindi hinahanap si Mr. Right… . dumadating sya when the time is right…
That’s the cycle of loving… you’ll eventually learn to love again in time… so ask… listen… and let go… .

-neh .^_^.

Dearest Joh.,

         For all the times I remember you I always promise to myself that I could forget you…. All things about you… I thought the past could no longer haunt me nor hurt me….. but it was wrong… . co’z the past is still a part of life itself….. . and you are so much a part of me….

        That in my task, I could not help myself but think of you….. I can always sense your presence and longed for everywhere I go… and I have realized that I can’t forget you ….. I always pretend that I’m ok.., and I don’t care for you.. I don’t want to see you.. but in reality.. I MISS YOU…all things about you. Your kindness…your sweetness… I miss your smile… I miss your voice… I miss the way you care …. I miss your love… yes, I miss you… now and forever….

       I know it’s wrong to say that… I want you to stay here with me…co’z I know, you really love her … and I have no choice…

                …but to forget you … all about YOU!!! Though it hurts me more and hard to do .. I’ll try just for your happiness and for her too…

I have to let go… I have to give up… co’z for sure there’s someone out there who will love me… even more….

Sweet goodbye.. =’)

I’ll do this to prove how much I love you..

-neh”