how sad.. .: Dearest Joh.,

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Dearest Joh.,

For all the times I remember you I always promise to myself that I could forget you…. All things about you… I thought the past could no longer haunt me nor hurt me….. but it was wrong… . co’z the past is still a part of life itself….. . and you are so much a part of me….

That in my task, I could not help myself but think of you….. I can always sense your presence and longed for everywhere I go… and I have realized that I can’t forget you ….. I always pretend that I’m ok.., and I don’t care for you.. I don’t want to see you.. but in reality.. I MISS YOU…all things about you. Your kindness…your sweetness… I miss your smile… I miss your voice… I miss the way you care …. I miss your love… yes, I miss you… now and forever….

I know it’s wrong to say that… I want you to stay here with me…co’z I know, you really love her … and I have no choice…

…but to forget you … all about YOU!!! Though it hurts me more and hard to do .. I’ll try just for your happiness and for her too…

I have to let go… I have to give up… co’z for sure there’s someone out there who will love me… even more….

Sweet goodbye.. =’)

I’ll do this to prove how much I love you..

-neh”

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set you free."

We often fool ourselves
And say that it's love
Only cause when it's gone
We end up being lonely
So how are we to know
That it just isn't so
That we just have to let each other go

There were many times
When we shared precious moments
But later realized
They were only stolen moments

If loving you is all that means to me
When being happy is all I hope you'd be
Then loving you must mean
I really have to set you free

Each day we meet my love for you
Keeps growing stronger
But everytime we meet
Makes leaving you so much harder

Letting go is not an easy task
When smiling feels like I must wear this lonely mask
It hurts deep inside
And I just cannot hide
That there's anguish at the thought
That we should have to part...

starts with goodbye.. .

I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on
with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on
with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.

even now

Even Now
When there's someone else who cares
When there's someone home who's waiting just for me
Even now I think about you as I'm climbing up the stairs
And I wonder what to do so she won't see
That even now
When I know it wasn't right
And I found a better life than what we had
Even now I wake up crying in the middle of the night
And I can't believe it still could hurt so bad

Even now
When I never hear your name
And the world has changed so much since you been gone
Even now I still remember and the feeling's still the same
And the pain inside of me goes on and on
Even now

Even now when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it's still so hard without you
Even now when I come shining through
I swear I think of you
And God I wish you knew
Some how
Even now