_sometimes, things went better if you'll just let them go..'

you need to accept the fact that even you want them to stay.. 

they just can’t., coz they're not meant to be in your life.. 

things will go on the right time at the right place..' if not now,, just wait and you will see.,. 

Life has its own wonderful way of makin' things better.. if pain starts to go down, then just be strong to let go..,everything happen for its own reason.,_

I have wrote all of these while knowing that this will worth nothing to you., things wouldn’t change by this stupid writings I have made., but still, all of these are for you.., your name is behind every word I have wrote in this., each of its letters spells your memory out..,

Now,, I’m here, finding out words to say goodbye., unlocking those memories that was once gave me a smile., I know I can let you go., I can still find a right person who will care for me the way I have loved you., someday I can proudly say to the whole world that I am now OVER YOU.,

time will come., and I’ll finish pickin up this broken pieces of my heart that you have left inside me..' tears will no longer fall from my eyes.,, I know I made a right decision., to GIVE YOU UP.. Promise me,, you'll love her with all of your heart., make her smile,, like the way you did to me.,

I will now walk on a different path., but if someday our roads meet again., you'll see a better me., you'll see a smile glowing in my face., thank you for making me happy even just for a while., I promise I’ll be happy,,I’ll be ok..I will smile AT THE RIGHT TIME..,'

Thank you.!                 

-neh”

: "august 3,2010"

nung simulan ko gawin
ang isang napakaspecial na regalo na ito... .

hindi ko alam kung bakit.??

basta ang alam ko... .

ginawa ko ito para sa kanya.. .

isang simpleng regalo..

para sa napaka-special na tao sa puso ko.. .

"everyday I LOVE YOU"

ito ang tawag ko sa regalong ito
secret na muna kung bakit. =)

surprise gift ko ito sa kanya,

ibibigay ko sana ito sa panahon na mapuno ko na ito...

hmmm..... . .. .

after graduation puno na sana toh.. .

kaya lang...

"november 2,2010
hindi ko inaasahan na bigla niya

akong iiwan...
sabi nya.. ."para sa ikabubuti natin dalawa"
"babalik ako.. .sa tamang panahon.."
hindi ko maintindihan kung anu ibig nya sabihin.
kasi iba yung sinabi nya sa ikinikilos nya.. .


malungkot.. , siyempre sobrang sakit..

hindi man lang ako nabigyan ng pagkakataon

para maibigay ito sa kanya...
o kahit maipakita man lang at
masabing....
"joh, ginawa ko ito para sayo"

pero...
kahit ganun.,

hindi ako nawalan ng pag-asa...

ipinagpatuloy ko pa rin ang paggawa nito...

kasi...

sabi ko sa sarili ko.,

"babalik siya"

naghintay ako.. .

isang oras...

dalawang araw.. .

tatlong linggo an nakaraan...

ngunit.... .
wala pa rin siya,..

at ang pinakamasakit...
nalaman ko na

nakahanap na siya ng iba...

pero, hindi pa rin ako nawalan ng pag-asa...
pinaniwala ko pa rin sarili ko a babalik siya,

pinagpatuloy ko pa rin an pag-gawa ng gift na toh..
para kasi ito sa kanya ee..,

isang minuto...

dalawang oras...

tatlong araw..

apat na linggo na nakalipas...

hanggang sa napagod na din ako maghintay,
lahat ng pag-asa na meron ako
lahat iyon ay binitawan ko na..

bakit pa.??
kung alam ko naman sa sarili ko na.. .
masaya na siya sa piling ng iba
at wala ng dahilan para umasa pa...

hindi ko na ipinagpatuloy an regalo na ito... .

para san pa ba.??
e, kahit anu naman gawin ko,
talagang wala na... .

mas mabuti pang hindi ko na tapusin toh...

sayang lang talaga kasi...

wala na kong chance para maibigay

ito sa kanya.. .

oO' espesyal para sakin ito..

pero sa taong pagbibigyan ko...

isa itong walang kwenta at isang basura... .

~neh~

xoxXxox

Maraming mga bagay na kahit gusto mo at sobrang halaga sayo.. .

May time pa rin na kailangan mu na itong bitiwan…

….

Mapipilitan kang iwan ito.. .

May mga taong kahit sobrang napapasaya ka… .

At palaging andyan para tulungan ka.. .

Dumarating pa rin yung oras na kailangan mo na siyang iwasan… .at layuan.. .

May mga desisyon na dapat natin gawin kahit napipilitan lang tayo.. .

At kahit mahirap para satin gawin mga desisyon na ito…

Kailangan.. . kasi ito yung mas makabubuti at tama.. .

At may mga pagkakataon na kapag ginawa mo ang tama.. .

Ikaw din yung mas mahihirapan… .

Dahil may mga bagay na kapag pinagpilitan… .

Ikaw din yung masasaktan… .

 

xoxXxoxnehxoxXxox

for you.. .

why is it hard to forget someone that you've lost
and no matter what I do and say I still can't bring him back.. .
i still love him.. . but it's more better to let him go.. .
because my life would be more wonderful and happier without him in my life.. .

.. .you'.,yes.! you..,would you please take care of him.. .
i know he would be safe with you.. .coz you love him.. .
thank you so much.. .

both of you bring me in better world.. .

again, thank you and God bless.. .

hope the relationships and promises you have should last forever.. . =))


imperfect",)

=( x( :((

I hope I could make you stayed a little longer.. .

I wish I had known this feeling before..

So I could’ve been stronger for now..

And this hurt I feel right now would be so far away.. .

All those memories we’ve shared tell me that I should’ve make you stay..

“We’ll make it last forever” these words you always said before.. .

But where those words now.?? Those promises and dreams.. .

Maybe I can’t make you back again..

Now, I know that sometimes promises just fade away.. .

I need you here beside me, it’s just no good to feel this way..

Now, that you’re gone.. .

I always wish you never had to go.. .

This pain I feel inside me just goes on and on

I need you now and I still never should have let you go…

x(

:neh."

December 17, 2010.."

I HATE LOVE.!!.. Ask anyone who had her broken heart that to love is causing so much pain… Too much love can be lethal… call me crazy, but I tell you.., I’d rather cry because I’m alone than because the person I love most that can’t love me back….
I hate guys that tells me that they love me…yet they never really know who really I am., and they were never really there to make me feel it…those who promise me to stay here with me…co’z they are the ones who actually find it easy to let go…
After loving a man who makes me cry and broke my heart…I still need to be strong… ganyan talaga ang buhay….pamali mali ng desisyon.. “Life is full of trials and errors.” …and I don’t want to make error again…. I’m afraid to hurt again.. single na lang kaya ako forever.! ^_^ co’z you know what’s good being single? No one makes you cry… I’m right di ba.? And being single is a lot wiser than being in wrong relationship…no attachment… no commitment… en no pain…. Tsaka 19 years naman ako hindi nagka-boyfriend e., 1 month lang naman kame…at mas masaya pa rin maging malaya sa ngayon… “there’s a right man for me…siguro., hindi lang talaga si JM un…”
Sabi nga ni Arcel.. “we can’t always keep someone to ourselves forever… sometimes you have to let go… yet, we have to remain standing.!” Kaya dapat… . fight! Fight! Fight! Whatever happens stay happy and enjoy what life brings…

: to all girls who had her broken heart….
Be careful ha.? Just sooner or later…. There will be someone you can call mine… TRUE LOVE CAN WAIT.. …and remember.” Hindi hinahanap si Mr. Right… . dumadating sya when the time is right…
That’s the cycle of loving… you’ll eventually learn to love again in time… so ask… listen… and let go… .

-neh .^_^.

Dearest Joh.,

         For all the times I remember you I always promise to myself that I could forget you…. All things about you… I thought the past could no longer haunt me nor hurt me….. but it was wrong… . co’z the past is still a part of life itself….. . and you are so much a part of me….

        That in my task, I could not help myself but think of you….. I can always sense your presence and longed for everywhere I go… and I have realized that I can’t forget you ….. I always pretend that I’m ok.., and I don’t care for you.. I don’t want to see you.. but in reality.. I MISS YOU…all things about you. Your kindness…your sweetness… I miss your smile… I miss your voice… I miss the way you care …. I miss your love… yes, I miss you… now and forever….

       I know it’s wrong to say that… I want you to stay here with me…co’z I know, you really love her … and I have no choice…

                …but to forget you … all about YOU!!! Though it hurts me more and hard to do .. I’ll try just for your happiness and for her too…

I have to let go… I have to give up… co’z for sure there’s someone out there who will love me… even more….

Sweet goodbye.. =’)

I’ll do this to prove how much I love you..

-neh”