"I don't want to be the princess.. I just need one pers0n.. Someone who will l0ve me and only think of me.. Someone who'll die with me when I die.. Someone who'll bec0me sad with me when I'm sad.. Someone who'll cry with me and laugh 0,5 seconds before me.. I want someone who can cheer me up.."

“As I think about the past,
the tears will come out.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As I think about the future,
the tears will come out again.”

let me be the one (lyrics)

Somebody told me you were leavin’
I didn’t know
Somebody told me you’re unhappy
But it doesn’t show
Somebody told me that you don’t want me no more
So you’re walkin’ out the door
Nobody told me you’ve been cryin’
Every night
Nobody told me you’d been dyin’
But didn’t want to fight
Nobody told me that you fell out of love from me
So I’m settin’ you free

[Ref:]
Let me be the one to break it up
So you won’t have to make excuses
We don’t need to find a set up where
Someone wins and someone loses
We just have to say our love was true
But has now become a lie
So I’m tellin’ you I love you one last time
And goodbye
Somebody told me you still loved me
Don’t know why
Nobody told me that you only
Needed time to fly
Somebody told me that you want to come back when
Our love is real again

Just turn around and walk away
You don’t have to live like this
But if you love me still then stay
Don’t keep me waiting for that final kiss
We can work together through this test
Or we can work through it apart
I just need to get this off my chest
That you will always have my heart

-neh"

love.??

Love begins with smile.... grows with a kiss ... and ends with teardrops...

"you're the one who broke my heart.. . you're the reason why my world feel apart.. .
...you're the one who made me cry... yet., I'm so in love  with you......
and I don't know why.. .

Sometimes.,the memories are worth the pain... sometimes you should hold your head up high.,blend away the tears and say Goodbye...I made a choice to finally let go... . because I can't stand the pain.. .
It's time for my last tears to fall and smile again.. .
I cried today.., not because I miss you or even wanted you...
It's because... I realized ... I'm gonna be alright without you ...
A billion words can't bring you back... .

"relationship are like a glass... sometimes it's better to leave them broken..
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.. .

trying to forget someone is like trying to remember someone you never knew..

i hate my heart for loving you..

-neh"

Giving all your love to someone is never an assurance
that they love you back... .
some people are just not meant to be in your life...
.no matter how much you want them to be...
you hug him goodbye like it's nothing...
while all you want to do is hold on forever...
I used to smile when I told people that you were mine...
but now.., I can't even smile and say your name at the same time...
As much as I love you.. . I have to say goodbye.. .
coz I know you would be happier if I let you go..
. I'm really sorry for the things I made you cry.. . I'm sorry if tears fell from your eyes.. .
missing you   is not the hardest part.. . knowing I once had you.., is what breaks my heart....
I'll never forget the times we once shared.., and I'll always remember how much you once cared..

but now., it's over... it's time to move on..

-neh"

goodbye..

I guess if you're done breaking my heart., I should go.......
as I started to look in your eyes..you asked me why I was about to cry.. .
co'z I knew you're going to say goodbye.
why can't you see how much you hurt me this time... .?
you used to say you were sorry .., now you don't.. . you don't care anymore... .
I never hated you for not loving me... . but I hate you... for making me fall even more when I'm trying to let you go.. I never show you how broken I am inside...every night I let the tears flow and I always ask myself... .
"why I can't let you go.?" I've said goodbye so many times before... . but all roads lead me back to you... .
I always wish that someday I can forget you... . all about you.. .
and always hoping that our roads will never cross again... . co'z I don't wanna feel this hurt once again... .

I'm tired crying every night...
honestly., I still love you... .but..,I have to let you go...dealing with the fact that you can never be mine....but then., I am thankful for having the opportunity to loved and cared for you.. . .

Good Bye..!


-neh"
November 27,2010

sana.. .

ito'y buong puso ko isinulat para sayo.. .

sa kabila ng masakit na katotohanan... na kahit kailan ay hindi mo malalaman... na ikaw mismo an tinutukoy ko sa liham na ito...

      alam mo ba.. .kahit hindi ka magsalita.,buo na araw ko na nasa tabi lang kita...

sana mabanggit mo minsan... na naging masaya ka dahil ako ang iyong kasama... .

handa ako ipagsigawan sa buong mundo... ang tunay ko nararamdaman para sa iyo...

at alam ko., kahit nun mga panahon na ikaw ay nasa tabi ko pa...hindi mo man lang narinig ang tibok nitong puso ko... ang puso ko na nanghihina kakasigaw sa pangalan mo...

  sa kabila ng kirot at sakit dito sa puso ko na dulot ng sobrang pagmamahal ko sayo... ay ikaw pa rin magpa-hanggang ngayon ang dahilan kung bakit tumitibok pa ito... .

    pag-masdan mo ang luha ko, para maunawaan mo ang totoong laman ng aking puso.,at ng maramdaman mo ang pag-mamahal ko sa iyo..na nakakubli sa bawat pagpatak nito.. hindi ko magawang ilihim ang pananabik sayo... ang maging bahagi sa bawat daang nilalakbay mo...ngunit bakit ganito.??

hindi ko maihakbang ang mga paa ko papalayo sayo.. .

   wala na akong lakas pa.. .hindi ko na kaya itago ang luha sa aking mga mata..at hindi ko na rin kayang pigilan pa...ang ngiting unti-unti na rin nawawala... hindi ko na hihilingin na ibsan mo ang aking kalungkutan... bigyan mu lang ako ng pag-asa.....na balang araw ay makakalimutan din kita... na isang araw...mawawala ka na tin sa isip ko.. . at tuluyan ka na maglalaho sa loob ng puso ko....

sana maintindihan nitong aking isipan...na kailanman....

ay hindi mo mgagawang tandaan...,ang mahahalagang bagay na hindi ko kayang kalimutan...

at sana matanggap nitong aking puso ang katotohanan na magiging masaya ka...

kung wala ako sa buhay mo..        

-neh"