December 17, 2010.."

I HATE LOVE.!!.. Ask anyone who had her broken heart that to love is causing so much pain… Too much love can be lethal… call me crazy, but I tell you.., I’d rather cry because I’m alone than because the person I love most that can’t love me back….
I hate guys that tells me that they love me…yet they never really know who really I am., and they were never really there to make me feel it…those who promise me to stay here with me…co’z they are the ones who actually find it easy to let go…
After loving a man who makes me cry and broke my heart…I still need to be strong… ganyan talaga ang buhay….pamali mali ng desisyon.. “Life is full of trials and errors.” …and I don’t want to make error again…. I’m afraid to hurt again.. single na lang kaya ako forever.! ^_^ co’z you know what’s good being single? No one makes you cry… I’m right di ba.? And being single is a lot wiser than being in wrong relationship…no attachment… no commitment… en no pain…. Tsaka 19 years naman ako hindi nagka-boyfriend e., 1 month lang naman kame…at mas masaya pa rin maging malaya sa ngayon… “there’s a right man for me…siguro., hindi lang talaga si JM un…”
Sabi nga ni Arcel.. “we can’t always keep someone to ourselves forever… sometimes you have to let go… yet, we have to remain standing.!” Kaya dapat… . fight! Fight! Fight! Whatever happens stay happy and enjoy what life brings…

: to all girls who had her broken heart….
Be careful ha.? Just sooner or later…. There will be someone you can call mine… TRUE LOVE CAN WAIT.. …and remember.” Hindi hinahanap si Mr. Right… . dumadating sya when the time is right…
That’s the cycle of loving… you’ll eventually learn to love again in time… so ask… listen… and let go… .

-neh .^_^.

Dearest Joh.,

         For all the times I remember you I always promise to myself that I could forget you…. All things about you… I thought the past could no longer haunt me nor hurt me….. but it was wrong… . co’z the past is still a part of life itself….. . and you are so much a part of me….

        That in my task, I could not help myself but think of you….. I can always sense your presence and longed for everywhere I go… and I have realized that I can’t forget you ….. I always pretend that I’m ok.., and I don’t care for you.. I don’t want to see you.. but in reality.. I MISS YOU…all things about you. Your kindness…your sweetness… I miss your smile… I miss your voice… I miss the way you care …. I miss your love… yes, I miss you… now and forever….

       I know it’s wrong to say that… I want you to stay here with me…co’z I know, you really love her … and I have no choice…

                …but to forget you … all about YOU!!! Though it hurts me more and hard to do .. I’ll try just for your happiness and for her too…

I have to let go… I have to give up… co’z for sure there’s someone out there who will love me… even more….

Sweet goodbye.. =’)

I’ll do this to prove how much I love you..

-neh”

"I don't want to be the princess.. I just need one pers0n.. Someone who will l0ve me and only think of me.. Someone who'll die with me when I die.. Someone who'll bec0me sad with me when I'm sad.. Someone who'll cry with me and laugh 0,5 seconds before me.. I want someone who can cheer me up.."

“As I think about the past,
the tears will come out.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As I think about the future,
the tears will come out again.”

let me be the one (lyrics)

Somebody told me you were leavin’
I didn’t know
Somebody told me you’re unhappy
But it doesn’t show
Somebody told me that you don’t want me no more
So you’re walkin’ out the door
Nobody told me you’ve been cryin’
Every night
Nobody told me you’d been dyin’
But didn’t want to fight
Nobody told me that you fell out of love from me
So I’m settin’ you free

[Ref:]
Let me be the one to break it up
So you won’t have to make excuses
We don’t need to find a set up where
Someone wins and someone loses
We just have to say our love was true
But has now become a lie
So I’m tellin’ you I love you one last time
And goodbye
Somebody told me you still loved me
Don’t know why
Nobody told me that you only
Needed time to fly
Somebody told me that you want to come back when
Our love is real again

Just turn around and walk away
You don’t have to live like this
But if you love me still then stay
Don’t keep me waiting for that final kiss
We can work together through this test
Or we can work through it apart
I just need to get this off my chest
That you will always have my heart

-neh"

love.??

Love begins with smile.... grows with a kiss ... and ends with teardrops...

"you're the one who broke my heart.. . you're the reason why my world feel apart.. .
...you're the one who made me cry... yet., I'm so in love  with you......
and I don't know why.. .

Sometimes.,the memories are worth the pain... sometimes you should hold your head up high.,blend away the tears and say Goodbye...I made a choice to finally let go... . because I can't stand the pain.. .
It's time for my last tears to fall and smile again.. .
I cried today.., not because I miss you or even wanted you...
It's because... I realized ... I'm gonna be alright without you ...
A billion words can't bring you back... .

"relationship are like a glass... sometimes it's better to leave them broken..
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.. .

trying to forget someone is like trying to remember someone you never knew..

i hate my heart for loving you..

-neh"

Giving all your love to someone is never an assurance
that they love you back... .
some people are just not meant to be in your life...
.no matter how much you want them to be...
you hug him goodbye like it's nothing...
while all you want to do is hold on forever...
I used to smile when I told people that you were mine...
but now.., I can't even smile and say your name at the same time...
As much as I love you.. . I have to say goodbye.. .
coz I know you would be happier if I let you go..
. I'm really sorry for the things I made you cry.. . I'm sorry if tears fell from your eyes.. .
missing you   is not the hardest part.. . knowing I once had you.., is what breaks my heart....
I'll never forget the times we once shared.., and I'll always remember how much you once cared..

but now., it's over... it's time to move on..

-neh"