: "august 3,2010"

nung simulan ko gawin
ang isang napakaspecial na regalo na ito... .

hindi ko alam kung bakit.??

basta ang alam ko... .

ginawa ko ito para sa kanya.. .

isang simpleng regalo..

para sa napaka-special na tao sa puso ko.. .

"everyday I LOVE YOU"

ito ang tawag ko sa regalong ito
secret na muna kung bakit. =)

surprise gift ko ito sa kanya,

ibibigay ko sana ito sa panahon na mapuno ko na ito...

hmmm..... . .. .

after graduation puno na sana toh.. .

kaya lang...

"november 2,2010
hindi ko inaasahan na bigla niya

akong iiwan...
sabi nya.. ."para sa ikabubuti natin dalawa"
"babalik ako.. .sa tamang panahon.."
hindi ko maintindihan kung anu ibig nya sabihin.
kasi iba yung sinabi nya sa ikinikilos nya.. .


malungkot.. , siyempre sobrang sakit..

hindi man lang ako nabigyan ng pagkakataon

para maibigay ito sa kanya...
o kahit maipakita man lang at
masabing....
"joh, ginawa ko ito para sayo"

pero...
kahit ganun.,

hindi ako nawalan ng pag-asa...

ipinagpatuloy ko pa rin ang paggawa nito...

kasi...

sabi ko sa sarili ko.,

"babalik siya"

naghintay ako.. .

isang oras...

dalawang araw.. .

tatlong linggo an nakaraan...

ngunit.... .
wala pa rin siya,..

at ang pinakamasakit...
nalaman ko na

nakahanap na siya ng iba...

pero, hindi pa rin ako nawalan ng pag-asa...
pinaniwala ko pa rin sarili ko a babalik siya,

pinagpatuloy ko pa rin an pag-gawa ng gift na toh..
para kasi ito sa kanya ee..,

isang minuto...

dalawang oras...

tatlong araw..

apat na linggo na nakalipas...

hanggang sa napagod na din ako maghintay,
lahat ng pag-asa na meron ako
lahat iyon ay binitawan ko na..

bakit pa.??
kung alam ko naman sa sarili ko na.. .
masaya na siya sa piling ng iba
at wala ng dahilan para umasa pa...

hindi ko na ipinagpatuloy an regalo na ito... .

para san pa ba.??
e, kahit anu naman gawin ko,
talagang wala na... .

mas mabuti pang hindi ko na tapusin toh...

sayang lang talaga kasi...

wala na kong chance para maibigay

ito sa kanya.. .

oO' espesyal para sakin ito..

pero sa taong pagbibigyan ko...

isa itong walang kwenta at isang basura... .

~neh~

xoxXxox

Maraming mga bagay na kahit gusto mo at sobrang halaga sayo.. .

May time pa rin na kailangan mu na itong bitiwan…

….

Mapipilitan kang iwan ito.. .

May mga taong kahit sobrang napapasaya ka… .

At palaging andyan para tulungan ka.. .

Dumarating pa rin yung oras na kailangan mo na siyang iwasan… .at layuan.. .

May mga desisyon na dapat natin gawin kahit napipilitan lang tayo.. .

At kahit mahirap para satin gawin mga desisyon na ito…

Kailangan.. . kasi ito yung mas makabubuti at tama.. .

At may mga pagkakataon na kapag ginawa mo ang tama.. .

Ikaw din yung mas mahihirapan… .

Dahil may mga bagay na kapag pinagpilitan… .

Ikaw din yung masasaktan… .

 

xoxXxoxnehxoxXxox

for you.. .

why is it hard to forget someone that you've lost
and no matter what I do and say I still can't bring him back.. .
i still love him.. . but it's more better to let him go.. .
because my life would be more wonderful and happier without him in my life.. .

.. .you'.,yes.! you..,would you please take care of him.. .
i know he would be safe with you.. .coz you love him.. .
thank you so much.. .

both of you bring me in better world.. .

again, thank you and God bless.. .

hope the relationships and promises you have should last forever.. . =))


imperfect",)

=( x( :((

I hope I could make you stayed a little longer.. .

I wish I had known this feeling before..

So I could’ve been stronger for now..

And this hurt I feel right now would be so far away.. .

All those memories we’ve shared tell me that I should’ve make you stay..

“We’ll make it last forever” these words you always said before.. .

But where those words now.?? Those promises and dreams.. .

Maybe I can’t make you back again..

Now, I know that sometimes promises just fade away.. .

I need you here beside me, it’s just no good to feel this way..

Now, that you’re gone.. .

I always wish you never had to go.. .

This pain I feel inside me just goes on and on

I need you now and I still never should have let you go…

x(

:neh."

December 17, 2010.."

I HATE LOVE.!!.. Ask anyone who had her broken heart that to love is causing so much pain… Too much love can be lethal… call me crazy, but I tell you.., I’d rather cry because I’m alone than because the person I love most that can’t love me back….
I hate guys that tells me that they love me…yet they never really know who really I am., and they were never really there to make me feel it…those who promise me to stay here with me…co’z they are the ones who actually find it easy to let go…
After loving a man who makes me cry and broke my heart…I still need to be strong… ganyan talaga ang buhay….pamali mali ng desisyon.. “Life is full of trials and errors.” …and I don’t want to make error again…. I’m afraid to hurt again.. single na lang kaya ako forever.! ^_^ co’z you know what’s good being single? No one makes you cry… I’m right di ba.? And being single is a lot wiser than being in wrong relationship…no attachment… no commitment… en no pain…. Tsaka 19 years naman ako hindi nagka-boyfriend e., 1 month lang naman kame…at mas masaya pa rin maging malaya sa ngayon… “there’s a right man for me…siguro., hindi lang talaga si JM un…”
Sabi nga ni Arcel.. “we can’t always keep someone to ourselves forever… sometimes you have to let go… yet, we have to remain standing.!” Kaya dapat… . fight! Fight! Fight! Whatever happens stay happy and enjoy what life brings…

: to all girls who had her broken heart….
Be careful ha.? Just sooner or later…. There will be someone you can call mine… TRUE LOVE CAN WAIT.. …and remember.” Hindi hinahanap si Mr. Right… . dumadating sya when the time is right…
That’s the cycle of loving… you’ll eventually learn to love again in time… so ask… listen… and let go… .

-neh .^_^.

Dearest Joh.,

         For all the times I remember you I always promise to myself that I could forget you…. All things about you… I thought the past could no longer haunt me nor hurt me….. but it was wrong… . co’z the past is still a part of life itself….. . and you are so much a part of me….

        That in my task, I could not help myself but think of you….. I can always sense your presence and longed for everywhere I go… and I have realized that I can’t forget you ….. I always pretend that I’m ok.., and I don’t care for you.. I don’t want to see you.. but in reality.. I MISS YOU…all things about you. Your kindness…your sweetness… I miss your smile… I miss your voice… I miss the way you care …. I miss your love… yes, I miss you… now and forever….

       I know it’s wrong to say that… I want you to stay here with me…co’z I know, you really love her … and I have no choice…

                …but to forget you … all about YOU!!! Though it hurts me more and hard to do .. I’ll try just for your happiness and for her too…

I have to let go… I have to give up… co’z for sure there’s someone out there who will love me… even more….

Sweet goodbye.. =’)

I’ll do this to prove how much I love you..

-neh”

"I don't want to be the princess.. I just need one pers0n.. Someone who will l0ve me and only think of me.. Someone who'll die with me when I die.. Someone who'll bec0me sad with me when I'm sad.. Someone who'll cry with me and laugh 0,5 seconds before me.. I want someone who can cheer me up.."