...i miss you..,....i miss us...
.....someday I'll be able to say this to you without tears in my eyes..
i long for your love and care since was mine..but all i have are memories now...sweet memories that i keep on trying to forget...because as much as it makes me happy to reminisce about it..,the thought that our love is nothing but a memory that now kills me....We said goodbye several times already...yet,we always end up taking it back...I thought this is just one of those goodbyes....are you ever gonna take it back.??
......more days of waiting have passed, (since Oct.29,2010) and i still haven't heard anything from you..i promise you that I'll be okay when we part ways....that I'll move on and be happy....If only i could, I would have let go of you the first time we broke up....If i can have you back again, I'll undo the things that make you away....but it can't be undone....We had no other choice but to part....and be strangers to each other....Just so you know I'm mad.., i forgive you....never will hate you.....not even in our million fights.....Since you've been gone...,I've been trying to hide the emptiness and misery.....I always wear a happy mask and act that i don't care and i don't need you....but the reality is...I'm deep anguish...I'm done pretending.! ...I'm dine diverting.! i can't deny any longer.....if you're here beside me....you'll hear my heart strongly beating for you...please come back..........and give the strength to breathe again...i love you joh....you're everything in my life...my guiding star that keeps me to the right path...you're my one and only love...,always and forever....It will never fade...,instead it grows stronger every second that you're away.....I will never stop waiting....till I hear you say....."can we start over again.??"
.......Till you accept me for who I am and who I'm not.....I wont expect too much...,I won't expect that I'll be your life.....just make me a part of it...,that's more than enough........I will not demand that you love me the way i love you.....just love me the way your heart can....You don't have to treat me like a princess this time...let me be the one to regard you as a prince....I may not be the girl of your dreams...,I may be far from being your ideal girl.....but I'm the one who loves you so much... despite of your imperfections....i love you so much joh....these are the words that i wanted to say to you from the moment you said goodbye......but i know how much you yearn your freedom.....so i decided to let you walk away.......I'll let you go for now..,hoping someday.....or one day.....you'll come back again...because i think you're worth every second of waiting....
-neh"
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